Before reading, please note that the blogger will be using heavily explicit language in sync with his current mood at 12.16am.
Okay, so... now my Mom's bitching in the living room, so loudly, she meant it for me to hear. Like it was MY FAULT for not working on a Sunday, which is SUPPOSEDLY my sister's fucking timeslot. Call me childish but im not the 1 who likes to cancel appointments abruptly but she(my sis) doesnt fucking have the decency to tell me that she has her exams on monday, and required me to help her on the Sunday, say, THREE DAYS EARLIER? and not DIRECTLY 1 DAY BEFORE Sunday? I was fucking already arranging to go out on the Sunday and she juz pops in and tell me to stand in for her 'cos she had to study for her common tests. No, im not against the fact that she planned to mug for it, but i am fucking pissed to hear her plans right before the day itself. Like for fucks sake, as of now, 12.22am , its my fucking fault for not acknowledging my responsibility to stand in for my sister and it is COMPLETELY fucking ALRIGHT for my mom to bitch at me whichever way she pleases. Make sense? No.
Maybe i shud show gratitude to my sister for standing in for me on my timeslots during my O levels, but still, its a matter of telling everything at least, AT THE FUCKING LEAST 3 days beforehand. I mean, No1 likes to cancel trips or outing at the very last minute, im sure many of you dont.
Maybe its my fault for showing attitude to my mom for standing on my sister's side, fulfilling her damned duties as a GOOD MOTHER by countering whatever i had to say with alibis and graceful comments for my sister. But, for a fact, i am not good at controlling my temper and i nearly do that everytime(yes, 'cos it happens EVERYTIME). She shud already know how i work around these situations. Yet, again, she bitches at me in my room, in the living room, on purpose to spite me.
Also, she used to say that i have alot of spare time, yet i just had to squeeze all my trip schedules on my workdays. LIKE FUCK, EVERY1 AS FREE AS ME MEH?! Sometimes, she can be a great mom, but sometimes, her situation analysis can be a chuck load of rotten nuts. Besides, always going out at night isnt nice......(sidetrack: shes bitching again, in the living room. 12.32am) 'cos for a fact i know that some of those i go out with do not always go out at night and it would somehow be a... pain in e ass for them to go out at night 'cos i had a fucking irresponsible sister.
Okay, enough for today. Im about to explode.
Sometimes, i feel that i just dont fit into the family at all. Fuckit.
Okay, so... now my Mom's bitching in the living room, so loudly, she meant it for me to hear. Like it was MY FAULT for not working on a Sunday, which is SUPPOSEDLY my sister's fucking timeslot. Call me childish but im not the 1 who likes to cancel appointments abruptly but she(my sis) doesnt fucking have the decency to tell me that she has her exams on monday, and required me to help her on the Sunday, say, THREE DAYS EARLIER? and not DIRECTLY 1 DAY BEFORE Sunday? I was fucking already arranging to go out on the Sunday and she juz pops in and tell me to stand in for her 'cos she had to study for her common tests. No, im not against the fact that she planned to mug for it, but i am fucking pissed to hear her plans right before the day itself. Like for fucks sake, as of now, 12.22am , its my fucking fault for not acknowledging my responsibility to stand in for my sister and it is COMPLETELY fucking ALRIGHT for my mom to bitch at me whichever way she pleases. Make sense? No.
Maybe i shud show gratitude to my sister for standing in for me on my timeslots during my O levels, but still, its a matter of telling everything at least, AT THE FUCKING LEAST 3 days beforehand. I mean, No1 likes to cancel trips or outing at the very last minute, im sure many of you dont.
Maybe its my fault for showing attitude to my mom for standing on my sister's side, fulfilling her damned duties as a GOOD MOTHER by countering whatever i had to say with alibis and graceful comments for my sister. But, for a fact, i am not good at controlling my temper and i nearly do that everytime(yes, 'cos it happens EVERYTIME). She shud already know how i work around these situations. Yet, again, she bitches at me in my room, in the living room, on purpose to spite me.
Also, she used to say that i have alot of spare time, yet i just had to squeeze all my trip schedules on my workdays. LIKE FUCK, EVERY1 AS FREE AS ME MEH?! Sometimes, she can be a great mom, but sometimes, her situation analysis can be a chuck load of rotten nuts. Besides, always going out at night isnt nice......(sidetrack: shes bitching again, in the living room. 12.32am) 'cos for a fact i know that some of those i go out with do not always go out at night and it would somehow be a... pain in e ass for them to go out at night 'cos i had a fucking irresponsible sister.
Okay, enough for today. Im about to explode.
Sometimes, i feel that i just dont fit into the family at all. Fuckit.