ok, first to address afew concerns
Concern no. 1 : Why i nv blog for so long?
Answer : i forgot, was lazy, got hooked up on dota lately.
Concern no.2 : Why i nv report my results on my last post despite i said i would do so?
Answer : i talk about the stupid english week until i forgotten all about it -.-...
Concern no. 3 : Why i so emo nowadays(for those who noticed my msn)
Answer : i seriously donno, could be my studies, love life, or prolly juz my f(labberghasted)cked up and unachieving life.
Concern no. 4 : Den why dont i do something about it?
Answer : 1, im lazy 2, used to have tried 3, i failed badly and 4, couldnt be bothered and hope i die sooner or later.
Okay, 2day my post can be quite emo. so beware if ur anti-emotism.
Juz had a game of dota....
Dota Noob Checklist :
Fed like an idiot --- Check
Got scolded --- Check
Did not run despite warnings --- Check
Showed a f(leeting)cking attitude --- Check
Defended a tower and died instead, still lost the tower --- Check
Need i say more...?
haha(sarcastic laughter) shit, i cant seem to cheer up. Juz hope i could like.. die the next instance? thinking on the bright side , the world would be rid of 1 less ugly man, 1 less goodfornothing, 1 less idiot, 1 less noob in dota, 1 less bhb-er, 1 less annoying man and finally 1 less better-off-dead man. I hope that some ghost can juz come, eat up my soul, enter my body and lead my life, i bet he/she would do it better than me ._______. " I cannot expect much, so i juz request that this particular ghost would eat me up in my sleep, give me a peaceful death. I know, im crazy, the onli person asking for a ghost to end my life. Why? im a good for nothing, im afraid of heights, cannot jump. I have had enuf of suffocation when i was fat, cannot hang, i dun like smelly and icky-wicky taste, cannot poison, i cannot bear pain, cannot cut myself, wad the f(ever)ck can i do?
Some kind car please knock me down tomorrow when i crossing the road, let me die. i dun feel like life is precious anymore, to me at least. What is there to cherish when ur life is so f(oolish)cked up and ur class sees u as a good for nothing insomniac(sp) person? I know, my parents do love me, but.. ya im reaching my limit soon, going crazy. Hope the anime Jigoku Shoujo works in real life. I wanna go Hell's Correspondence and put down some random terrorist's name and juz die in hell( search up google if u dunno about it, and its a realli cool anime)
Life isnt unfair, wads unfair is the man's thoughts. U do the dumbest of things, thinking nothing would happen. U get into trouble and end up blaming Life. Thoughts, to me, is wad u cannot control. Place a plate of roasted chicken infront of a fat man whos trying to go on a diet. He would say that he wont wanna eat it, turn away and hope u throw the chicken elsewhere. But in actual fact, if u didnt throw it away, sooner or later he would eat it up. Why? He knows of its presence, he knows that the chicken is there, he knows that its delicious, why? his brain told him that. The man would then lose control of his arms and mouth and u know the latter part.
Life, as told by many, is always of the more successful people. Where are the unsuccessful ones? They get chucked away in some corner, ppl hoping that they wont come out and do wad u call 'throwing face'. U dont see em, thats all. U see successful examples in this field of expertise, yet the unsuccessful ones were left to rot and die. I am one of em. not that i work or anything. Its juz an analogy.
No, im not begging for sympathy, nor am i begging for attention, im juz saying what my brain is telling me. So dont come saying :" aww u poor thing, dont think so pessimistic liao larhs" i rather u go "screw u, f(lap)ck an elephant for jesus/buddha/allah/shiva's sake."
N i dont get this, why dont the mosquitoes or sars viruses attack useless ppl like me? why attack the successful ones? Well, afterall, useless ppl r meant to be chucked away and left to die, why not take this opportunity, and kill us this way? No one would mourn for us, they might party and worship the mosquitoes/sarsvirus for killing these social/economical parasites. Everyone always say theres a way, theres a way, dont worry, wont die 1. But aint ppl still pushed to a corner and in de end they suicide? its not their choice in this situation anymore its the you-know-whos who r contradicting what they said pushing ppl to corners n forcing them to die indirectly.
Maybe, juz maybe, i nid a shrink.
Concern no. 1 : Why i nv blog for so long?
Answer : i forgot, was lazy, got hooked up on dota lately.
Concern no.2 : Why i nv report my results on my last post despite i said i would do so?
Answer : i talk about the stupid english week until i forgotten all about it -.-...
Concern no. 3 : Why i so emo nowadays(for those who noticed my msn)
Answer : i seriously donno, could be my studies, love life, or prolly juz my f(labberghasted)cked up and unachieving life.
Concern no. 4 : Den why dont i do something about it?
Answer : 1, im lazy 2, used to have tried 3, i failed badly and 4, couldnt be bothered and hope i die sooner or later.
Okay, 2day my post can be quite emo. so beware if ur anti-emotism.
Juz had a game of dota....
Dota Noob Checklist :
Fed like an idiot --- Check
Got scolded --- Check
Did not run despite warnings --- Check
Showed a f(leeting)cking attitude --- Check
Defended a tower and died instead, still lost the tower --- Check
Need i say more...?
haha(sarcastic laughter) shit, i cant seem to cheer up. Juz hope i could like.. die the next instance? thinking on the bright side , the world would be rid of 1 less ugly man, 1 less goodfornothing, 1 less idiot, 1 less noob in dota, 1 less bhb-er, 1 less annoying man and finally 1 less better-off-dead man. I hope that some ghost can juz come, eat up my soul, enter my body and lead my life, i bet he/she would do it better than me ._______. " I cannot expect much, so i juz request that this particular ghost would eat me up in my sleep, give me a peaceful death. I know, im crazy, the onli person asking for a ghost to end my life. Why? im a good for nothing, im afraid of heights, cannot jump. I have had enuf of suffocation when i was fat, cannot hang, i dun like smelly and icky-wicky taste, cannot poison, i cannot bear pain, cannot cut myself, wad the f(ever)ck can i do?
Some kind car please knock me down tomorrow when i crossing the road, let me die. i dun feel like life is precious anymore, to me at least. What is there to cherish when ur life is so f(oolish)cked up and ur class sees u as a good for nothing insomniac(sp) person? I know, my parents do love me, but.. ya im reaching my limit soon, going crazy. Hope the anime Jigoku Shoujo works in real life. I wanna go Hell's Correspondence and put down some random terrorist's name and juz die in hell( search up google if u dunno about it, and its a realli cool anime)
Life isnt unfair, wads unfair is the man's thoughts. U do the dumbest of things, thinking nothing would happen. U get into trouble and end up blaming Life. Thoughts, to me, is wad u cannot control. Place a plate of roasted chicken infront of a fat man whos trying to go on a diet. He would say that he wont wanna eat it, turn away and hope u throw the chicken elsewhere. But in actual fact, if u didnt throw it away, sooner or later he would eat it up. Why? He knows of its presence, he knows that the chicken is there, he knows that its delicious, why? his brain told him that. The man would then lose control of his arms and mouth and u know the latter part.
Life, as told by many, is always of the more successful people. Where are the unsuccessful ones? They get chucked away in some corner, ppl hoping that they wont come out and do wad u call 'throwing face'. U dont see em, thats all. U see successful examples in this field of expertise, yet the unsuccessful ones were left to rot and die. I am one of em. not that i work or anything. Its juz an analogy.
No, im not begging for sympathy, nor am i begging for attention, im juz saying what my brain is telling me. So dont come saying :" aww u poor thing, dont think so pessimistic liao larhs" i rather u go "screw u, f(lap)ck an elephant for jesus/buddha/allah/shiva's sake."
N i dont get this, why dont the mosquitoes or sars viruses attack useless ppl like me? why attack the successful ones? Well, afterall, useless ppl r meant to be chucked away and left to die, why not take this opportunity, and kill us this way? No one would mourn for us, they might party and worship the mosquitoes/sarsvirus for killing these social/economical parasites. Everyone always say theres a way, theres a way, dont worry, wont die 1. But aint ppl still pushed to a corner and in de end they suicide? its not their choice in this situation anymore its the you-know-whos who r contradicting what they said pushing ppl to corners n forcing them to die indirectly.
Maybe, juz maybe, i nid a shrink.